Ruth's Confession

All along as I've read Never Let Me Go by Kazuo Ishiguro, I have longed for a deeper relationship between Tommy and Kathy. I finally got my wish in section 4! All along, I would get hints that the two were really made for each other. There seemed to little bits of foreshadowing that these two characters had a deep connection that Ruth never really shared in, even though it was Ruth and Tommy that had been a couple for a long time. Kathy even expresses that she had always felt this separation between the three of them. "The way it is, it's like there's a line with us on one side and Ruth on the other" (Ishiguro, 285). I think that Ruth always knew this in her heart. That is why she went out of her way when they were at the Cottages to exaggerate the fact that Tommy supposedly would never like Kathy "like that."

Ruth expresses her deep regret of this in this last section. "I'd like you to forgive me, but I don't expect you to...The main thing is, I kept you and Tommy apart...That was the worst thing I did" (Ishiguro, 232). She had done this because of her nature. She never wanted to be left out of the possibility of getting deferred. She always wanted to be the center of attention. She always wanted to be the most privileged or at least thought to be the most special. However, once she is farther along in her donations, she understands that she may have costed Tommy and Kathy their chance for a positive future. Although Tommy and Kathy find out that there is never hope for a more positive future, Ruth died hoping for them. "Ruth wasn't like that. She always wanted to believe in things" (Ishiguro, 284).